It’s a case of over-commiting and under-delivering, which is not a great place to be as a freelancer. It’s where I find myself now though, with the end of the year hurtling towards us.
I have a string of jobs on the go, with every minute of every day accounted for. I also have a whole lot of amazing ideas crashing around my head and I’d love to devote some proper time to them (and get a business plan penned), but there isn’t any. So I am waiting for the beginning of December when everything should start settling – the schools break for the year (no more kids yoga), one of my contacts ends, and work pretty much starts winding down to shutdown, Kenton, Cape Town and Mozambique. Holding on!
One thing I’m tying my hardest not to cut (when all I want is more sleep) is my practice.
Ashtanga is usually practiced in a studio without mirrors, which is something I like. I’m not terribly fond of the observation of my reflection, although there is something to be said for it, as I discovered:
- My chaturanga is a bit odd in terms of symmetry and I can’t decide if that’s why my elbows are sore (golfer’s elbow, can you believe it?! The irony: I go out of my way to avoid golfers, who eat away weekends walking with their mates, chasing little white balls)
- My practice is different – sometimes I forget (although I say it to my students all the time), but the more you practice, the more your body changes (it’s actually a no-brainer)
- I have muscles and my body has changed considerably in the last 3 years
- A look in the mirror really illustrates the point: We can sometimes feel so very different in our body’s to how we look to the world and how the world perceives us
- A mirror is a distraction: good for alignment and a lightbulb moment, but then it’s better to put aside reflections. And that goes for every day. Throw away mirrors and scales 🙂